Monday, 27 April 2015

Pregnancy is a scary time!

I wasn't planning to write this post, but after experiencing something super scary today, I just had to share my experience. I mentioned in my last update, that when I went for a walk to the shop with Zachary, I experienced really bad back pain and started getting contractions... Well... today was a totally different story and I have been in tears all day.

Sooo... I woke up early in the morning, feeling great and energised. I got ready, put makeup on, had a lovely breakfast and left Zachary with my husband at home, so I can go to the Post Office to pick up a parcel. Scott offered to take me, but it was very sunny and I felt great so I wanted to get some fresh air and a bit of exercise. After all, it's good to stay active during pregnancy and walking is highly recommended.

It's not a long walk at all, 15 minutes each way. I didn't take Zachary, because I was worried that I might get back pain again etc. You know... trying to be a responsible mum. And thank god I didn't take him with me! 

Before I even got to the post office, I felt the back pain coming. I sat down on a bench and tried to phone Scott to ask him to come and get me, because I didn't want to put unnecessary pressure on myself and the baby. With my luck, the phone was cut off so I couldn't get in touch with anyone. I sat on the bench for a bit longer and once I felt better, I went to the Post Office (it was only across the road from the bench). When I got out of the PO, the back pain was gone, so I popped into a charity shop to have a look at some toys. I was there for a minute and when I was walking out, I felt a bit dizzy.

I was already planning to use a phone booth on the main street to phone Scott and let him know to come and get me from a supermarket (I promised Zac a treat), but when I got to the phone booth I started to feel even more dizzy, with ringing in my ears and blurred vision. I have never experienced anything like this. I managed to put some money in and dialled the number, only to be directed to voicemail. Scott always checks the voicemail immediately, so I knew that he will get the message. I told him to come and get me from the phone booth and by the end of the message I was literally passing out, sliding down the wall... mumbling that I need help. I was a second away from hitting the floor. It was absolutely terrifying. I had all sorts of things running through my head (including dying in a phone booth)... It wasn't just me who was in danger, it was my unborn baby too!

I tried to stay calm and focused on my breathing and after a minute, I could see again and the ringing in my ears was gone. I still felt dizzy though. I dialled the number again and thankfully Scott answered and said that him and Zachary are on their way to get me. What a relief! I got out of the phone booth to make sure I am around people who can help (just in case), sat on the nearest bench and 2 minutes later, I was in the car, crying like a psycho. I swear... I was absolutely terrified and I couldn't stop crying! Once we got home, I had some food and tea, checked baby's heart beat on my Doppler, took a little nap and watched some trash tv to help me relax. She has been moving a lot, kicking etc so she is fine. I would have panicked if I didn't have a baby heart rate monitor and didn't feel any movement. 

So, what the hell happened to me??? I was told that it is very common to feel like this and many women actually pass out during pregnancy, but I just can't stop thinking about it. I could have fainted on the street, burst my head open and die! It's soooo scary! It could be caused by many factors, including blood pressure, sugar levels, heat etc. Another option is an anxiety/panic attack, but I get them a lot and it was totally different. I never feel like I am going to faint during an anxiety/panic attack.

I booked an appointment with my doctor for Wednesday, but apparently it will be absolutely pointless and he won't be able to reassure or help me in any way. I will make him check my blood pressure and blood sugar though just in case.

I just feel like I can't trust myself anymore with going out of the house and I will be stuck inside until August. Fact! I am not going anywhere by myself till the baby is born! Thankfully, my husband is at home a lot so we can do family things together, but I just can't believe how different this pregnancy is! The last time I was working 12h nightshift and I was perfectly fine.

Oh my... I don't even know why I am sharing this, but I just can't get over it. I have been thinking about it all day and I am worried that it will be stressful for the baby. 

Pregnancy is a scary time. Our bodies go through so many changes that sometimes it is impossible to keep up with the extra blood flow etc. What was a norm before can be a real challenge now and I feel like I am only safe in my house with a phone by my side, just in case something goes wrong.  It's terrifying enough to be growing a human and giving birth, so any possible problems/complications simply scare the hell out of me.



  

20 comments:

  1. Pregnancy IS scary, even if it goes smoothly! I was always worrying that something might happen to me or the baby. Hope you and the baby will be fine and you won't experience any more those scary moments. Sending hugs! x

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    1. Yep, I try not to worry too much but you never know what's going to happen.

      Thank you lovely :)n x

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  2. I am definitely not a doctor, and have never been pregnant, but anyone can see that you are terrified, and my heart goes out to you! First of all, I am so glad that Scott got you home safe, you absolutely did the right thing by staying calm enough to call him and getting out of the phonebox. Secondly, I really hope that you do go to see your doctor and that they can at least do some checks to set your mind at rest. Thirdly, please, please try to relax. Maybe you could take some steps just to put you at ease? You could pop a spare phone charger in your bag or maybe a whistle to blow to alert attention if something happens again. You are a wonderful mother to Zach and your new little one will be so loved and protected too, please try not to panic or doubt yourself sweetie!

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    1. Yes, I am seeing my doctor to check if everything is fine. It could be my blood pressure or sugar etc so I have to get it checked asap.

      After this scare, my husband won't let me go anywhere on my own, haha :) He is too worried that something might happen again.

      Thank you for your kind words lovely. x

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  3. I've been having episodes like that from the beginning of my pregnancy, it's horrible :( At first they only happened if I didn't eat literally every hour but even though they've slowed down now they just happen at random.
    Try not to let it stop you from going about your normal activities even though it's a very scary thing to happen. The way I deal with it is I carry snacks in my handbag all the time just in case it is my blood sugar dropping and I make sure I don't overdo it, lots of sit downs if I'm out and about and I don't walk too far.
    Have a chat to your midwife about it though in your next appointment, she might be able to suggest a few things to keep yourself safe.
    Lots of hugs xxx

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    1. Oh god, I can't even imagine feeling like this again. So scary!
      It could be my blood sugar, I will get it checked asap and let my midwife know at my next appointment.

      Thank you :) x

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  4. Oh gosh how scary! I must say I didn't experience anything like that with my pregnancy, it sounds so scary what happened to you :( I really hope it doesn't happen again and if it does I really hope that someone is with you. Did you think about calling the maternity assessment unit? Might have been worth going to them to get checked and reassured :)

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    1. Yes, they said that it's very common and if it happens again and I actually faint I have to see them. I am seeing the doctor tomorrow just in case. He will be able to check my blood pressure and blood sugar. Baby's heart beat is fine and she is kicking etc so it's all good now, but I felt very light headed after breakfast again. So weird.

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  5. Sandra, please go to your GP/midwife. Maybe it's low blood sugar, low blood pressure, vertigo or just one of those things, but at least it will put your mind at ease and be one less thing to worry about. Keep venting all this frustration and anxiety as well - we're always here so let it all out!

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    1. Thanks lovely. It's good to vent sometimes :)

      I am seeing my GP tomorrow to make sure I am ok :) x

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  6. I send you lots of hugs from Spain, Sandra. Try to relax and please get that blood checked! Maybe with a pill of iron or whatever you may fell better!

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  7. Pregnancy is terrifying, this happened to me in my 7th month in Primark of all places, I was in the queue and suddenly came over very hot, then dizzy, then everything started going black....
    Not fun times, pregnnacy is great at times but when it sucks, it really sucks!
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    1. I went to Primark recently and it made me so anxious that I am terrified to go back. It's always sooo busy and hot.

      Hope you're ok lovely x

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  8. Hun my heart goes out to you, and I have not been pregnant but that sound petrifying. When your out by yourself i can only imagine how scared you were. Im glad it passed with out you hurting yourself and managing to be responsible at the same time true super mum id say! Hope this doesn't happen again to you so you can enjoy the rest of your pregnancy... xxxx

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    1. Thank you lovely. It was really scary and it could have ended badly, but at least I know what to expect now and I can ask someone to come with me when I want to go out etc. x

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  9. Oh gosh, what a frightening experience for you. I hope you don't go through that again & make sure you take good care of yourself xxxxxx
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  10. This happened to me many times when I was pregnant, usually if it'd been a while since I'd ate or was on my feet too long at work. I had to give myself little breaks in the middle of doing someones hair sometimes because I thought I was going to pass out. Nothing was wrong, I think it's just your bodies way of saying to take it easy.
    Be sure to take care of yourself, rest up and enjoy the fun parts of pregnancy x

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  11. Oh lovely what a horrible experience for you. I'm no expert at all and obviously I can't say whether being pregnant contributed to what happened at all but it sounds to me like it was a standard fainting spell. I've suffered with them since I was about 15, although I've only ever actually fainted once because I now know the signs well and know what to do. The early signs for me at least are starting to feel light-headed, like I can't support myself any more and feeling very hot. This then moves on to loud noise in my ears and people sounding distant and my vision starting to disappear before going completely just before I pass out. I think the reason why you didn't pass out is because you ended up sitting on the floor. This is the best thing to do when you start to feel like this, if there's nothing to actually sit on just sit on the floor and this should help it pass. I started suffering from quite regular fainting spells last summer and have ended up sitting on the floor of Wilko's, on the pavement in the street and on set while filming! I hope the doctor can reassure you and that you feel much better now x

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  12. I am pregnant too what you've explained could be low iron so make sure you get that checked x

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